fixed energy needs a container to feel safe 🤍
fixed energy needs a container to feel safe 🤍
why i'm launching a paid newsletter 💌
Today, in Witchy Kid class, I burst into tears.
The reason? Launching this dang newsletter. 🥲
I’ve been sitting on it for days. Perhaps you resonate? When there’s a part of your soul that wants so badly to take that risk — make that leap — but you’re afraid. Something is holding you back. Your past? Your history? Your heart?
This Lunar eclipse is exact degree conjunct my Jupiter in Scorpio, at 14° degrees. It falls in my 5th house — of creativity, inner child, and joyful expression.
The one thing on my mind these days? Writing. ✍️
“Place your hands on your body,” Ocean says. “Where does the energy feel stuck?”
To my surprise, my hands drifted over to my womb. My sacral. The birth of all creation. The energy was angry, churning. Restless.
I realized I was still carrying so many old wounds around creation and creativity that I am FINALLY letting go of under this Lunar eclipse:
The idea that I need to be consistent to “deserve” money, that I need to be fully established to run a paid newsletter, that no one would read my writing, that I’m sharing too much, that I’m not providing enough value . . .
. . . All of it.
When it comes right down to it — why do I write?
Because I can’t afford not to. 💌
Writing is as core to me as breathing. When I am cut off from my words, when I go too long without journaling, I feel bereft — disconnected from my life’s essence. Life loses its shape and meaning. I stop being present. I start to forget.
This Astrology journey is so fresh and full of color for me.
Why not document it?
Why not bring others along for the journey?
But it felt vulnerable, somehow, to just open it up for free once again.
Whenever I think about the graveyard of blogs and newsletters I’ve left in my wake, all the skeletons in my creative closet, I balk. They are a source of regret for me. But no more. This time, I’m going to do something different.
This time, I’m going to try making it paid.
I need you to know it’s not about the money for me.
If this is prohibitive to you, by all means — email me, and I’ll sort you out!
It’s about the intentionality behind it. Because to me, Money is Energy. 💥
I have my first paying subscriber (thank you, Ocean! 🥹).
And because of that, I feel held accountable, somehow. Like there is someone counting on me to get my words out there.
There is a sense of urgency, of importance, that I’ve never felt before.
(That’s why I’m writing this — publishing twice in one day?! Who is she!!)
Scorpio is a fixed sign. For all my mutability, it appears my creativity feels most safe and seen where there is a container for her to be held. When she has a sandbox she can fully express and explore and expand in.
“Fixed energy needs a container to feel safe.” ~
Having this paywall makes me feel safe.
Safe to share. Safe to experiment. Safe to be brutally, unflinchingly honest.
The way I’ve always wanted to, but never dared.
This eclipse has burned away something in me —
All the fucks I’ve ever given about what other people think. ❤️🔥
From now on, I give BECAUSE I want to. I love BECAUSE I want to.
And I write, because I have to. There is no other way.
Thank you for being here.
Let’s build this thing together.
— Gwen x
The words fixed energy needs a container to feel safe resonated to my core. It is a piece of the puzzle that was missing. Why is it so hard to switch gears and relabel myself. I have a fixed t-square, which can be a fixed grand cross with the nodes. I need a container to feel safe says Mercury in Capricorn. Yes a reframe and a few steps closer to freedom.