let things end, beautifully

we broke up ⌇ lessons from the Libra solar eclipse portal - part one

The day after I ended my 8 year relationship, I went on my first spiritual women's retreat.

The drive up was only an hour, passing through beautiful, winding mountain roads. I am notoriously afraid of driving long distance, but this time, knowing I was alone — it fortified me. There was a sense of, “I don’t have a choice now. I only have myself to rely on.” The thought is both heady and terrifying.

As I pulled up to the villa’s gates, an overwhelming wave of peace washed over me. The only way I can describe it is it felt like getting wrapped in a hug. Little did I know this was already the powerful energy work at play, a forcefield of love to cocoon me and the women on this retreat.

Tears streamed down my face as I made my way up the driveway.

Welcome, the villa seemed to be whispering. Welcome home.

I’ve written about this here, here, and here, on this Substack, so this may not be news to some loyal readers. But this time, it’s true.

I am separating from Shawn, my beloved partner of 8 years.