the Sagittarius full moon and my mother
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Itβs 10:08PM on a Saturday night and Iβm all cozied up in bed, writing this love letter to you. How have you been, friends? I feel like itβs been a while since we talked, heart to heart.
π Sagittarius Full Moon
The most recent Sagittarius Full Moon on Thursday broke me wide open. I am relearning the contours of my heart; how much of it I have kept closed. How much more I have to open. It is a growth edge, but a welcome one. I relish the challenge.
No one talks about this enough β the archetype of Sagittarius is always associated with faith, optimism, flying-by-the-seat-of-their-pants β but there is so much resistance that comes with embarking on something new. That split second of fear before booking the ticket. The yawning pit in your belly before the βyesβ. I suppose thatβs why Sagittarius comes before Capricorn β they both relish a sense of challenge. Just in different forms.
π€°π» My Mother
I have a Sagittarius moon. In many systems of astrology, the Moon is tied to your Mother β specifically, your experience of your mother.
My earliest memories of my Mother were of play. Long days in the garden, canisters of water, splashing around. PlayDoh, Barbie dolls, endless play-dates and adventures. A Sagittarian dream.
When I grew into teenage-hood, that relationship shifted to something darker. I felt suddenly, desperately, misunderstood. My mother was a single mom by that point, working hard to make ends meet, and I didnβt cut her any slack. We fought, a lot. Over time, our relationship β like a rubber band β grew taut. On my 25th birthday, it snapped. She cut me off without a word. As I muddled through the pain of that estrangement, and found my way to spirituality, I started to gain a deeper understanding of the pain Iβd caused her.
We eventually reconciled, but our relationship didnβt fully recover. There was a huge rift, right down the middle, that I couldnβt find my way around. I decided it was easier to keep her at a distance. To be polite, and decent, but not let her in. As the years went by, the barricades I built around my heart fortified.
Until this Sagittarius full moon.
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